Maybe I’m just crying in my yakisoba, but I think this move back to Montana was a step backwards for me, and I mean a pretty sizeable one. I know…..I keep going on about this, so why don’t I change it? Well…..it’s just not that easy anymore. You have to keep things afloat to where you have income coming in, a steady roof over your head – you just can’t live as impulsively as you do when you don’t have others depending on you for maintaining the stability. I started reading as I can from my CCNA book so that way I can get some more knowledge in my brainpan, and then become more marketable, so it’s not a matter of “if”, it’s a matter of “when”.
I know I stare at screens way too much, and really should be doing more active things, but this is the curse that a tech support job gets you – sitting on your bum for 40 hours a week. I suggested that perhaps they should rotate us between desk and field support, but that went as far as trying to hurl Ayers rock over the Pacific. They love the fact that I’m committed and put in extra hours to help out customers (I’m greedy and an overtime whore), but maybe I’m just trying to fill in the lost space with work just to keep me busy? I know it sounds kinda pathetic, but it’s the only explanation I can think of. By the time I get home, it’s very late, and not much is going on. Forget going OUT to do something since all the sidewalks except going to the BARS are rolled up and tucked away, and I’m not one for bar-hopping……..at least not around here. There are no kitch-cafes like there were in Denver, so there’s nowhere to “see and be seen” as it were. I have seen some people at work act a bit more “independent” lately – one guy wore a chef’s hat, another changes her hair colour by her mood, and another one is starting to grow his own mohawk (ah, the memories of the 80’s – how I miss them). I know if I started being “myself” again, it would only lead to hardship since I feel that’s what happened at my last call center job, but that was a touch more extreme than most straight-laced communities would allow (those of you who know me know THAT story).
I did start making a playlist of good 80’s/alternative videos that I’ve found on youtube.com on this link here:
I’ll keep adding to it, but this is what I’ve found so far. I’m kinda surprised at some of these actually BEING on here, but I know there are others besides me who used to watch and/or listen to these as well, so I’m rather happy about that one. I keep hoping there are good artists out there nowadays, but have found VERY few that I like, aside from Highland, In-Grid, and T.a.t.U., which all seem to have wonderful sound…….of course none of them are from here in the US either.
Guess it’ll be time to do some record shopping once I get to Denver next time.