I have a fair degree of tolerance for just about anything out there, but if it’s one thing I just don’t get nowadays are those people who stop at nothing to make someone miserable. Regrettably, at this time, I feel I’m the angriest at the conservative Christian movement. Why? Oh sit down honey….this might take a while.
In the years I was growing up, I dealt a lot with judgment and rejection – most notably from this police officer who was a bit of a religious zealot who too seemed to take way too much delight in telling me anything I did was not “pleasing to God”, up to and including my wearing of a Cyndi Lauper t-shirt – I mean….how petty is that? Criticizing you on what you wear? Come on… Then while growing up, I realized how much I loved fashion, but didn’t quite grasp how that would come to bite me in the ass many times too. Much of the fashion I adore is labeled female, but I just love how much variety there is! So needless to say, when I went out, I was labeled a freak, a deviant, gay, sick in the head….you name it, I was pretty much called it. I did lose a number of good friends in those years – or at least those I THOUGHT were good friends.
I found that if I want to live life as I want to, I had to develop a very thick skin, and up my confidence about a thousand-fold. It took a number of years, but in the end, in 1986, I met probably the best friends I could ever have prayed for, who taught me that as long as you are happy with yourself, then all else is irrelevant. Now don’t get me wrong….there were years I was growing up in a Christian church, and was taught some very loving lessons. I was taught that we should love all people regardless of who they are – later on in life, I would come to realize that this teaching had a dark side. Yes, love everyone….as long as they believed in faith exactly as they did. If you don’t, then you are pretty much an outcast.
I have faith. I have faith in God – I know he is up there, and is probably shaking his head, wondering how we could practice both love AND intolerance in the same breath. I believe that your house of worship is in your heart – it doesn’t require a church to go to – it doesn’t require you to be of “one faith or the other”. I believe that God intended us to grow up as a race on this planet to love, cherish, and embrace one another – not judge based on HOW you live your life. I adore the people of this planet – we have done so much that is good – we have made great strides in positive directions. We could do much much more than we have now, but we seem to be now mired in this society politic that causes us to fight and hate one another over things that should never be fought over. We could grow as a planetary race, yet we fight over land, fuel, and beliefs because they conflict with each other – we have become so short-sighted and foul-tempered that we seem to enjoy misery for some reason!
This brings me to my subject line – I read online that not only are the people who backed Proposition H8 trying to justify it more, but are now wanting to take away the joy that those who were able to get married in the short time it was legal! They just can’t STAND to see someone happy that they would go to such an extreme extent as to crush it out of existence under their mighty doctrine! You just can’t leave well enough alone, can you? You have to make a show of force of everyone that does not see through your eyes! You Christian conservatives say to love one another and be with one another, yet you SPIT on that very statement with your venomous attacks on those who just want to live in happiness. You have no right to say you are a loving people when you go to such lengths to make someone suffer!
I don’t think God meant us to go down this path – I believe he meant for us to become enlightened beings, who have learned to live in harmony and peace with one another – not to fight and cause misery and suffering. Why is it so hard to let people be happy? Why is it such a task to let people breathe and be proud of who they are? People must be allowed to discover what makes them happy, and not have it thrust upon them like the giant anvil that you seem to lovingly toss at them.
I just want to love….is that so very very wrong? Oh…and Happy Christmas. I hope you find SOME happiness during this season.