This sucks……I’ve hit this wall that I can’t seem to get past. I’ve been trying to think of something to write about, but just can’t come up with a good direction to start in – like my mind has been stuck in amber. I think part of the problem is that I don’t listen to as much music as I used to on a constant basis. There were times I’d be drawing and would have music playing in the background, or be in a place that was playing music, and then I could just feel the flow of the music and vibe with it – yes, I know that sounds like a cliched 70’s term, but hey, it fits.
It’s not for lack of music either. Heaven knows I have tons of stuff on CD, digital, cassette, and record – I just need to focus on it. It’s the focus that appears to be gone – it’s like ADD only on hyperactivity. Perhaps it’s something I need to see a doctor for, but I think music may be good therapy to begin with. I’ve been blessed to have been given tons of good music over the years, so I’ll have a good amount to go on.
Maybe that’s my biggest block of all – FOCUS. I need to get it back.
Lately I’ve been in a fog as far as what I want to do. It seems in recent times, I have been doing less and less, and this is definitely a bad thing. Aside from recent issues, I’ve not felt any different than I usually do. Aside from the restrictions while I’m at work, my mode of self-expression has not changed much, although it has been markedly less than it used to be. Maybe I enjoyed taking the time to get ready each day, but now I really don’t care as much as I used to. I mean…….I care about as much as anyone else usually does, but I don’t work on it as much as I used to.
I also used to be more of a doodlebug – I would doodle on stray scraps of paper, napkins – just about anything I could get my hands on as long as I had a scrawl-stick handy. I’m just figuring out what type of new project I want to get involved with, and coming up with a new idea isn’t exactly easy. I do have one idea though, but it’ll take some money that I don’t have right now. My thought is to pick up a Galaxy Note 10.1 since it has Photoshop Touch, a pressure-sensitive stylus, and a camera all included in the same package. My idea is to go around town, take pictures of places, and then put doodles of things where I remember them as they used to be.
I think I just need to get inspired once again. Perhaps some music may help this – time to make a new CD!