Today was a good day for me. I had my schedule tweaked (just for today) to help cover some stuff, and it feels later now than it usually is – but then again, I usually get off work 2 hours later than I did today. Tomorrow will be a longer day, as it’s 3 hours longer and I still get off at midnight. Am I masochistic? Probably, but perhaps it’s part greed and part wanting to be a team player. I guess it’s something I do well at, so I might as well put some passion into it. As has been said by my favourite TV chef, if you don’t have passion for what you do, then you won’t be any good at it.
Gotta love Chef Ramsay. So popular, even if he makes sailors blush with his cursing.
I feel Machayla is coming out more and more each day, and perhaps it’s just the way I adopt my appearance, but I think it’s a good thing, as I feel more complete, and more “like myself”, as it were. I’m not completely female and yet not comletely male either. I take the best bits of each and roll them together into my own persona. I’m finally happy with who I am again, and while it’s not a huge change in my life, it is an important one to me. Funny thing is, I seem to relate more to the women I talk to than before, but perhaps I understand them a bit better than I understand guys sometimes. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not going to pull out that sorry old chestnut of “I was born in the wrong body”, because whatever you are biologically, it doesn’t change that you can be who you want to be on the deep inside. We are what we are, and if we want to be something or someone that is quite a bit different than anyone else, then so be it.
I am going to the hair salon next month, and I’m going to try a more female styled hairdo, as I love length and I love body, and I want to have fun with both, and as its even becoming more the norm these days, as more guys ARE doing it, it won’t come as any shock to anyone. Now to keep working on getting the weight off. It can happen…given time.
and to quote Gene Simmons….and that’s why it’s good to be…….me.